On Friday we were feeling really good. It was fairly quiet internally and there was a sense that we were OK. We even did some YouTube stuff. Then out of the blue, our American friend we hadn’t heard from in 3-4 months contacted us. Yesterday we called him and it was a rather odd conversation. He mentioned that we seemed much more integrated now. Not sure how accurate this is, and it’s in direct contrast to a statement from Kriss who wonders if he’ll ever be able to talk to me without the protection of the others being there. I’ve often wondered how the dissociative protection appears for the significant people in our lives, it must be very confusing for them. I know when we were in high school one of our friends mentioned that we used to get a very nasty expression on our face for no apparent reason – I’m now pretty sure this was some sort of dissociative switch or trigger reaction. It also helps explain why we didn’t make friends easily (at all?)…
We’re still really shaky and numb from the phone call. I don’t know all of what was said, and most of it has been taken away from me. I know we talked for just over two hours, but I only remember about 20 minutes of it, if that.
As for the mindless games – well this one isn’t so much mindless as REALLY addictive and frustrating, it’s called Fantastic Contraption. The basic principle is that you have to build a contraption to move a piece of block from one area to another. Kriss sent me the link, and is just a little annoyed that while he was still working on level three we got to level six :) We have a young one who is great with this sort of problem solving.
As a final note, it seems that this year it’s televisions turn to beat up on Dissociative Identity Disorder – first United States of Tara and now another Criminal Minds episode… Movies like Beautiful Mind were seen as a fairly accurate description of what it is like to live with Schizophrenia, but also received awards and made box office millions. Why can’t the entertainment industry learn from this? Do it well, or don’t do it at all. But then, I suppose if they lived by that ethic there would be very few television shows or movies produced – and the problem with that would be???
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