In a comment to the Froggie entry, we made a casual observation that “Froggie” must mean something to a young one because the name given ended in “ie”. This didn’t really mean much to us at the time, but last night we were thinking about it and wondering what the “ie” ending meant for us. In the context of our dissociative system it obviously means a great deal in that our names include Sophie, Carrie, Mickie and Ellie. What is interesting is that none of these parts hold any abusive memories – Sophie was born to ensure we were a happy teenager and looks after young ones; Mickie protects young ones; Carrie is the protector of The Attic, while Ellie is a main protector on another floor. So it could be concluded that someone who protected us in some way had a similar name ending. This could be the case for our childhood neighbour whom everyone called Cloudy; we adapted that to Cloudie to fit with a more idealised person who loved us unconditionally – which in reality she didn’t.
Two of our main protectors don’t have the “ie” ending – One and Management. These two aren’t as affectionate as the other protectors, but are instead a watchful caring – a simple example is that The Basement is always dark and when Aimee goes to visit One, he turns on a spotlight so that it always on Aimee and she won’t get scared. One also ensures that everyone in The Basement is quiet while Aimee is there. So it’s gentle caring that isn’t overly affectionate, but is a dependable (always there) kind of love. Management and One pre-date Ellie and Carrie in being given names and their defined roles, I think this has influenced their names.
Names we’ve given to pets and objects we like which pre-date our understanding of the dissociation also have this “ie” ending – for example, we’ve had Winnie for about 14 years now. So it’s been an unconscious association for many years. I wonder if it’s to do with Katie? Katie is our youngest one and was formally known as Sweetie Pie. She holds an innocence that we all need to protect. Because of this it would make sense that if our brain decided that names ending in “ie” held some innocence, then names such as Management are stronger ones to protect that innocence. In many ways our system is built around protecting Katie, but she is not in The Attic where the innocents/innocence is kept. Maybe we needed a reminder of what we needed to protect? She is a hurt innocent though, so maybe that is why she is with us?
Sorry for the rambling, it’s not really working out with Liz and so we’re trying to do the work things out without having someone there to talk to.