We’re going to be OK :)

Today a series of very random events occurred which has me convinced that we’re going to be OK :)

  1. Someone at work asked if we were OK.
  2. We talked about the suicidal ideation on this blog and in a private forum.  There was no internal backlash as a result, and people didn’t reject us for the overwhelming emotions that were going on in this head.
  3. Thanks to a link to Musicovery given by Sam’s Bold and Creative Alter, One got to listen to some B.B. King and Van Morrison – we forgot how much some of us rely on music to soothe and restore energy.
  4. A job was advertised which would suit our skills perfectly.  It would give us job satisfaction and mean moving from this house which has so many bad memories associated with it.
  5. We went and got HEAPS of rental DVD’s to watch – some of which are 8 day hires.
  6. The nature of our Polyvore sets have changed…

5 days ago…

Broken dreams

4 days ago…


3 days ago…

Walking the line



This may look as if they’re getting darker – and they are in colour. But they’re now reaching out… Four and five days ago they were about suicide, three days ago it changed to walking a line and today it was about reaching out. The ones doing these sets are working through it!!!

We’re not out of danger by any means… but I’m certain we’re going to be safe.

I think I’ll still organise a few days off work as we’re heading into another review of the re-structuring process which is a layer of stress we just don’t need.

Thank you to everyone who has helped, commented and just been there for us over the last week. It is appreciated, more than you know…


10 Responses to “We’re going to be OK :)”

  1. 1 amylane2701 April 25, 2009 at 1:06 am

    I’m so glad you’re feeling better x

    • 2 castorgirl April 25, 2009 at 11:54 am

      Thanks Amy :)
      We’re back on the mission to buy a descent camera… Part of the reason we didn’t buy one last week is we didn’t realise that the Canon’s have the image stabiliser in the lens – we NEED image stabilisers as we have a tremor. So we had to double check what sort of lens we needed. Now we’re all sorted :)
      Take care xx

  2. 5 HiddenPathway April 25, 2009 at 4:44 am



  3. 7 davidrochester April 26, 2009 at 6:10 pm

    We are so happy that you’re finding a way to navigate this treacherous ground. #4 seems especially promising … fingers crossed on that. And we’re so proud of you for being willing to express the fact that you’re having a hard time, and realizing that the support around you is genuine. It’s really difficult to do that.

  4. 8 castorgirl April 26, 2009 at 8:39 pm

    It’s almost impossible David… We’ve gone back to thinking of the whole experience as being drama filled attention seeking rubbish. Our expressions of thanks to everyone are genuine. I just wish we didn’t play so many mind tricks on our collective selves.

    Yes, the job opportunity looks promising. As a generalisation, whenever there is a recession people go back to University to up-skill, so librarians are still in high demand.

    Take care…

  5. 9 davidrochester April 27, 2009 at 5:49 pm

    Even if you’ve gone back to a less-accepting frame of mind, you caught a glimpse of something more hopeful. I know from experience that if you can get the glimpse, it’s permanently resident somewhere in the system. Try to believe that, even if you can’t believe that what that part of the system thinks is actually true.

    The switching around is hard, I know. But I think one of the greatest benefits of blogging, for DIDers, is the record of our shifting states of mind. Looking back over my own writing has really helped me to keep track of who-all is in here, and what they think.

  6. 10 castorgirl April 29, 2009 at 11:38 am

    I agree David. I’ve looked back over some of our writing and wondered who in the world wrote it. It can be a good way to reflect back on growth and changes…

    It can be interesting (and scary) to see what has been added sometimes.

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